There is a time and moment in each of our lives that has created who we are today. 不經一事，不長一智 has what always stood out most in every situation. A phrase suggesting that experience is what gives you wisdom, it is what makes you grow not only emotionally but also mentally. Without it, who are we to know what we are, who we are and what we want? It’s contradicting sometimes; makes me laugh too I suppose. When you thought your maturity has reached its peak and conquring the world was within your grasp. Buddy…hold up.
Leaving pages unfinished, skipping a few paragraphs to even chapters here and there. Do you think you’ll still get the whole picture? Naive. But for a moment you thought that Hey! I am making the right decisions, I am going with what my heart says. What heart dude?! Get real. There will always be two sides of the story. Two sides of every situation you have and will ever been in. Don’t think for a second that each decision you make will definitely be the right one. But in saying so, it also doesn’t mean it is/it was the wrong choice either. Both comes with its implications and it all really comes down to how you see it, respond to it and deal with it.
We often don’t think much of it, but making decisions is always one of the hardest things you can ever do. It doesn’t matter what it concerns; when you do end up choosing one of the options presented to you you’d always end up pondering or might even regret that you did not choose that other one.
Having one of those days where you wake up and not feeling yourself, not wanting to face what life will throw at you today either at work, at school/uni or even just from people in general. It’s just one of those days…where you just want to stay behind a closed door, enclose yourself and surround yourself with your own thoughts. Is it a bad thing though? Shutting yourself out from the world, from people who care about you. You really start to wrack your brain and think hard and ultimately lose yourself in it sometimes, whether what you chose to do or not do was the right choice. I mean it terrifies me sometimes. Not that what I chose was wrong or bad or might lead to something worse, but…the confidence I once had in me when I made those decisions sometimes subsides and it makes me wonder and doubt sometimes, like did I do/choose the right thing?
It’s quite interesting though…when you finally get a chance to sit down and have some alone time, you really start to think about anything and everything, and then you suddenly realise just how hectic your life is. I mean for one, having only just finished a chapter of my life at uni which I considered the most draining but one of the most amazing part of my life…to now shifting to a set schedule of work everyday as well as keeping my network alive, juggling life and family, friends and foes…I wonder what an extra 24 hours would do for me…nah I’ll probably just procrastinate and find myself pushing for time again.
I get it, I know. It is obviously impossible to predict the future and sometimes we just gotta live through it day by day. Take up the responsibilities that comes with the choices we make and if it were to be a bad potato, just pick the right one next time. People often say the old is wise. But can age really define your level of wise-ness? There are several people I know who are older than me whom their lives are falling apart, but there are also some who…just seems like they have it together. This goes for the young ones too. Which sometimes makes me think, that your maturity level isn’t really defined by your age.
There are figures like parents, and friends and mentors who can often shed a light in things we’re not sure of. Not that they would know what would happen in our lives but they can often point us in what they think is the right direction. But then again, who can say that whatever they know is right though? It really all comes down to the fact that none of us can actually agree on what those things are. What is considered the right thing to do and what is considered the wrong. But I guess all we can do is hope for the best.